I can honestly say that for once, I am utterly disgusted with myself.

I can't believe it.
I can't even fathom how this happened.
I don't even know how it came to be.
But I do know that I've hurt someone really bad.
And I know exactly what I've put him through.
I don' know how many sorry's I have to say to win his respect back.
I guess there's no point in asking, but it's worth a try.
I just can't beleieve I did that.

Okay, so here's how I figured out what I was doing in the fisrt place...

Well, I had just finished writing something in a journal and was putting it away.
I turned out my light and looked up at my ceiling and began talking to Casey.
Not out loud, just praying.
Yes, I pray, shuttup.
So I was telling hi the situation I was in and how I was just being a total bitch.
And as I got more into the details,
I began to see a resemblence in a certain guy that has been torturing me
for the past few months.
It was like the hardest slap in the face ever.
And it hurt pretty bad, too.
I just...ughh.

I'm so sorry...

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Does that help at all?
Ughhh, I'm just...I'm so sorry.
and just so you know, I really do love you.
I hate that I put you through so much shit.

-Missy[is hopeless]